As the year comes to a close, this one flew by. I was on the run for most of it, moving 100mph. Over the past few years, I felt unfulfilled, like I was standing still. I didn't feel like I was progressing in my career or life. I was over it more times than not. This year feels different, and as I reflect on that, I've become more grateful for perspective.
2022 was the year of grace; I was given so much of it these last 12 months. Field rotations and certifications with my new unit filled in January and February. Say what you want about me, but one thing I know is my job. I certified "first time go" every time. I attended the Advanced Leaders Couse in March - we saw the outcome. March was also the first time I experienced a Soldier's suicide firsthand, and in my 14 years of service, I've never felt that type of pain. I don't think that hurt will ever go away. Rest in Peace Specialist Disrraelis A. AmadorFlete.
April and May were whirlwinds. I balanced Jerm, work, and home while undergoing a career audit. I wanted to give up and throw in the towel, but those close to me wouldn't let me. For the first time in a long time, I explored life outside the military. The thought was daunting, and I felt so unprepared. Anxiety and depression almost took me out of the game. But let me tell you what it feels like to be highly favored! June rolled around, my Battalion Commander verified my promotion, and I could renew my military contract with an end date that would take me to a FULL RETIREMENT!
During July and August, I was able to unwind. I spent the necessary time with my family in the Virgin Islands, and although my brother decided to snorkel with my phone and fry the entire thing causing me to lose months of digital content, I enjoyed my time. Towards the end, Jerm and I both started school, and being back has been a labor of love. I want to quit, but every week I keep going. And you know what?! I've been doing exceptionally well! I was offered a position in my University's Honor Society and accepted.
September onward has been a modge-podge of Jerm, school, field problems, and certifications. I've passed my physical fitness test and continue working on my mental and physical health. I want to be the best version of myself, and I'll continue working on that the best way I know how.
I hope 2023 is filled with peace.
I want that for all of us.